I remember / je me souviens
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For those limbic bursts of nostalgia, invented by Proust, miniaturized by Nicholson Baker, and freeze-dried by Joe Brainard in his I remember and by Georges Perec in his Je me souviens.

But there are no fractions, the world is an integer
Like us, and like us it can neither stand wholly apart nor disappear.
When one is young it seems like a very strange and safe place,
But now that I have changed it feels merely odd, cold
And full of interest.
          --John Ashbery, "A Wave"

Sometimes I sense that to put real confidence in my memory I have to get to the end of all rememberings. That seems to say that I forego remembering. And now that strikes me as an accurate description of what it is to have confidence in one's memory.
          --Stanley Cavell, The Claim of Reason


Monday, July 07, 2003
I remember Buddy Ebsen, so well. Reading his
obituary today, I was surprised he'd been still alive. He was, of course, Jed Clampett, on The Beverly Hillbillies, whom I always think about whenver I read Amy Clampitt. He was the easy-going father, always harasssed by Granny -- herself a combination of Whistler's Mother and Grandma Moses in her attitude -- but always serenely unconcerned about it. But I remember one particular scene when Jed has decided that it's time to do something about some trouble she's caused, instead of practicing his usual amused detachment. He asks Mr. Drysdale (like the pitcher! I would always think later) to do something for him; Mr. Drysdale righteously refuses, till Jed pulls out a roll of money, like a gambler, and casually tosses it into the air several times. This was so interestingly out of character that it spoke volumes about his intelligence and secret competence. At that point he reminded me of my own uptown grandfather, also serenely phlegmatic and detached, but with hidden resources of canniness and know-how, and command of money and its uses. I loved that moment, and loved TV, or loved the show, for giving it to me. RIP, both Jed Clampett and my grandfather.


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